And So We Begin

Well, the new year is here. It just seems like 2009 went by so fast, and there was so many changes. With two new additions to our family, life has definitely had its ups and downs. I lost my job, and have been struggling to be a stay-at-home mom again. It's been about 6 years since I've found myself in this role, and wow can it be hard.

Tomorrow we start to move out of the house. This has been a very daunting process. It causes a lot of stress sometimes, knowing that we will be trying to cram a whole house into three rooms. But we feel that we're making this decision for the right reasons, and that it will give us a chance to come out ten times better in the end.

Making this change with the house makes me feel like I can let go of who I was and move on to who I am going to be. I can leave the things behind that I no longer need to carry with me, and hopefully come out of this a better mom, a better wife, a better daughter, a better sister, and a better friend. I can lay down the load that I have always chosen to carry and take a deep breath.

It being New Years Day, I have been puzzling over resolutions all day long. My first resolution is easy, because it is one I have been planning and preparing for since October. Starting on Monday, January 4th, I am going to begin my boot camp program again. I lost almost 20 lbs. doing this program a couple of years ago, and I am determined to finish losing all of my pregnany weight. I also want to provide a good example for my family, and have the energy to play with my kids. They'll be keeping my hands full for the next few years, and I need to be able to keep up.

My second resolution is to work on my writing. I am aiming to write at least one page a day. It doesn't matter if it's journaling, poems, stories, or whatever, but I want to work on this again. It has always helped me feel very peaceful when I can write, and I need activities that soothe me.

My third resolution is to quit smoking. This one I think is going to take the most work. I really need to examine all my reasoning behind my addiction and take this one step at a time. But once again, I will do it to feel better, and to be a better example to my family.

I am hoping that the new year brings happiness to all my friends and family. Although I am not good at telling any of you, I am extrememly grateful for the parts each of you have in our lives. This last year has tested our entire family to the limits and I know that we could not have done this alone. Each and every one of you mean the world to me, and I am glad that each of you is in my life.

Happy New Year!